Good afternoon can I get a private post please.
I dont even know where to start but I am so broken, I just want to know if anyone has been in this situation and what they did so please help 😔
I’ve been with my husband 18 years. 3 beautiful children and I thought everything was perfect until 5 years when porn become a massive part of his life. So he spends one week at home and one week fishing ( another stroy) anyway he got addicted to porn so bad that he couldn’t have sex with me. He would lose it and then wait until I was asleep to go downstairs to finish while watching it. This broke me back then. So I thought it was me, I was the reason. I did everything got skinny, looked after myself, got a new job so my income was higher. Still did and do 90% of the housework, take care of our children and all there needs.
Back then I gave him a choice with porn or me, before everyone comes at me. I know its just porn and normally it wouldn’t be a problem but his brain cant allow him to have both. He choose the married. Everything got back on track after a few weeks and it was great but I am now here again. Broken, lovely questioning why I am not good enough. We are back to that stage where he cant even keep it up without porn involved. He can’t just have sex with me. Im so so hurt broken confused, lost. I dont know what to do anymore. Im so sad. He cant admit he has a problem. Tells me its who he is and just have to get on with it. Ive cried ive begged. That’s shitty. Ive allowed myself to make myself small in a room just to make it okay, but today the lid has come off afternoon the morning when he choose porn again. I cant stop crying, Im just hurt. Please tell me someone else as been here. I just need someone to tell me it gets better, I can fix this and he will choose me. 😔💔
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