Could I have a private post please.
I’m really struggling with the loss of my business. It was my whole world and life and I know nothing else. I’m stuck on things I can say and can’t without people knowing it’s me.
I feel like I can’t walk around where I live anymore, I have no friends, noone to talk too, those who I thought were my friends and couldn’t sing my praises enough during the whole process are now in with someone else who’s opened the same thing I did. They’ve not spoke to me since this whole thing happened despite “being my friend”
The whole thing is a mess, and it truly wasn’t my fault however this isn’t believed, i have had every angle of my life ruined and under every scrutiny, there’s been nothing found as there is nothing to find.
I am open and have been all the way through I have nothing to hide.
However I’ve been reported to the social about my children by these people, I’ve been abused in the street when passing people, I’ve been threatened and shouted at outside my own home, I’ve been reported to the dwp since claiming uc and have had to prove recently within 24 hours of this supposed fraud I’m committing! I showed everything they asked and proved nothing there.
I cannot post things online, have to have all my stuff private as they are just watching everything I do, everywhere I go and reporting me!! I’ve done nothing wrong and yet even those who understood now don’t seem to understand and they have all washed their hands with me due to this abuse and stuff 😞
I feel like right now there’s no escape from this constant abuse of these people. I don’t know who I am anymore and I’m just putting on a brave face for my children.
I’m struggling to afford anything, I’m struggling to feed us and have to rely on the food bank and other means I know of. I’ve never been in this position, I’ve never not worked.
I feel that maybe I need to speak to someone about it all, maybe some counselling might be good for me but feel like it’s also silly as it was just my job/my business 🤷♀️
Not really sure what else to say at this point but I’m struggling, this seems to come and go in waves like a grief process. I’m seeing new things happening, seeing comments like bigger and better than before and that really hurts. Am i just being silly or is this normal? Thanks x
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